I've found that my life is very cyclical, just like the seasons. Whenever I have new opportunities for growth and change, I often think of that time in my life as a "springtime"--a time of new beginnings full of blossoming hopes and dreams.
I've learned a lot of lessons from my garden over the past 9 years. One lesson I've learned is that nature changes constantly with that change sometimes being good and sometimes being bad. However, sometimes the changes are neither good nor bad. Instead, they are simply just changes. Here's an example... the blossoms on the plum tree are always in a slightly different place on the tree's branches than they were the last spring or the spring before that. The blossoms look the same and the effect of their beauty is the same, but still there are changes from what existed in prior years. The change is neither good nor bad. It is simply change.
I'm learning to embrace those kinds of changes in my life and realize that they happen all the time. I'm also learning that very often my goals and life plans will change and that's okay too.
For example, I have planned for the past 6 months to start graduate school in June. It has been a goal that has helped me reach beyond my comfort zone in other areas of my creative life, opening doors that I am so excited to see opened. Yet, that goal of attending graduate school is changing now. I won't be moving forward with it for a number of reasons. But instead of being embarrassed by my change of goals, I'm learning to embrace the change and know that the goal served its purpose even though that goal's purpose turned out to be very different than what I thought its purpose was 6 months ago.
Instead of beating myself up because of a perceived "failure", this time I am going to move forward--still experiencing one of life's "springtimes" as I venture toward the new and exciting creative horizons that I see before me.
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